Patience? I Gots None…

I have found that there are not many things that piss me off more than a change to my plans.

I generally don’t make too many plans. But the times I do are usually important times. I work out a plan in my head over and over until I am satisfied with what I have concocted; to change them brings me so much frustration that it pushes me over the top.

I don’t like that something as small as a potential change to my plans can drive me into a fit. The truth is, plans changing are not the only things that have me on a short fuse. I have noticed myself lacking in the patience department of life. Not only am I on a short fuse, but these days I am not one for waiting. This can sometimes get me into an aggravating spot.

I like to blame all this on the fact that I have not had a full nights sleep since summer. Blaming lack of sleep is so much easier than admitting that I just don’t have the motivation to work on my patience.

My motivation is in roughly the same place as my patience. I do not find myself motivated to do much, writing is one of those things I haven’t cared to put effort into. I suppose I need to start kicking my own ass and getting motivated to work on change, to work on letting go of what burdens I am holding onto, to work on moving on and to get myself back on to a good track.

Shine on, y’alls.